On July 25th 2013 I will have been back at work an entire year.
This year has seen me grown in un-expected ways, it has highlighted dreams I didn't know I had and made me realise that I don't want to stay in my current place of work.
There are so many reasons that have brought me to this frame of mind...
The realisation that I couldn't just wander back into my working shoes after a maternity leave of 13 months.
How I was actually disposable and wasn't in as such high demand as I had once thought... My oh my how I came tumbling down off that pedestal I had placed myself upon.
Working life as I knew it was far behind me. Changed forever.
So you can imagine my surprise when I head into the office after a long weekend to find that I need to fill out an internal company profile. A profile similar to LinkedIn that can be viewed by the entire organisation worldwide.
A profile that wants me to share my hopes for the future, my aspirations for the next couple of years...
Of course I sat there stumped.
Stumped because I have so much that I want to achieve in the next two years. Stumped because I could never write it down on my internal work profile....Stumped because it would mean telling them that I want to leave. How I want to leave sooner rather than later.
I want to make big changes in my life and carve a career that I can be proud of.
I don't want to stay put in my 'comfortable rut' just because it is the easy option.
In the next 2 years I want to have resigned, gathered up enough work experience to re-write my entire CV, and I want to be in a new job pushing myself forward so that I can succeed. I want to have to have taken the chance on that fork in the road and see where that yellow brick road will carry me.
After all if I don't put myself out there now, I never will.
Success is not a destination, it's a journey and I am more than ready to grab life with both hands.