It's true what they say, anything that can go wrong, will absolutely without a shadow of a doubt go wrong. It will happen in Three's as these things all tend to do, and it will happen when you can least afford it. The run up to Christmas has been incredibly tight for me, the new house cripple me financially and there were times I wondered how I was going to put petrol in the car to take Leo to school.
Of course with money already tight, the last thing I needed was for my laptop to suddenly die. I work from home, I'm self employed and without a laptop and a working internet connection (which just so happens to be point number 3!) I cannot work. Of course the laptop did die and our internet cut out for two weeks as the engineer had seemingly crossed our line with another house. I ended up looking at Quick Loans so I could at least start trying to replace my computer and get back up and running.
I decided to opt for a desk top as that seemed like the best option moving forward. Both of the laptops I have had in recent years were not built to last and I wanted something reliable and fast. I opted for a all in one computer to save space, which meant that I didn't need a computer tower. It's worked out perfectly and it has allowed me to get back to work and catch up on my work load, which has in turn helped me turn my financial situation back around again.
For the first time since the Summer, I can finally say that I have it all under control. There is no feeling worse in the world of having the preverbal rug pulled from under your feet, not only knocking you to the floor, but taking out everything around you like a plague in a bad dream. It always happens in slow motion too, you can see it all happening around you, but you still cannot do anything about it.
You can only watch.
I am so relieved that the pressure has been taken off my shoulders, I am lucky to have such a supportive family around me who would go above and beyond to help me keep my head above water. My Mum invited us over for dinner so that we didn't need to worry about food costs, and there was that one time she put a full tank of petrol in my car. I don't think she will ever really know how thankful I was to her that day, even though I pleaded with her not to do it.
Leo of course has no idea about how tight money was towards the end of last year, and that is exactly how it should be. This is one of those things that I am so pleased to have protected him from, shielded him from. Leo never went without because that was my goal. I made sure we had the money for the school trip, for his new pair of shoes, because Leo is my priority in life, if he's happy and healthy then I know that I am doing something right.
Now things are back to how they should have been all along, I am making sure that I have money for a rainy day so that we are never in that position again, and now everything is OK, I have treated myself for the first time in a long while, and bought an iWatch for myself.
Here's hoping that 2017 is an easier ride than the end of 2016.